Things could not have been worse. There I was in the middle of the Pacific Ocean feeling like no one knew me or loved me. In a world of 5 billion people I felt all alone... and I was. I was at the end of my rope. I hadn't the strength to go on. Suicide was not an option. I firmly believed there was a way to be happy but what was it? Loneliness was ruining my days while nightmares were stealing my nights. My heart was sick; my brain fried. The guilt of so many stupid choices was making it difficult for me to hold my head up high. Like a directionless zombie I staggered through my empty days. After twenty-two years of a meaningless existence and agonizing pain I sobbed like a broken child. I wept like never ever before. I had heard of Jesus and believed he exists but did not know how to trust my life to him. I said, “Oh Lord, I promise I’ll be good, please take away this loneliness.” I collapsed onto the floor weeping, my face buried in my arm. My eyes were tightly shut but I could see Light. I saw myself through the eyes of Jesus Christ. He felt an overwhelming compassion for this young man lying helplessly on the floor. He descended to touch me. I struggled to get up, making it only to my knees. He surrounded me. His Holy Spirit began to penetrate my rib cage. I raised my arms and looked from side to side. I could not see anything but felt Jesus. The terrible, debilitating loneliness was washing away. I knew in an instant that Jesus loved me too!, that his power is real, and that heaven is a reality. I understood that this is the "Stuff" that raises people from death. God has forgiven me! Suddenly, my life had meaning! Great sorrow was being replaced by joy. I understood that this Holy Spirit is the One that brings eternal life.
Jesus is a Presence, seperate and apart from anything or anyone I had ever experienced. Like millions of other people I experienced the love of Jesus Christ because I called out to him in truth. My life would never be the same again. This whole revelation was the beginning of a Higher Education for me.
One of the first things I did after this miraculous experience from God was to purchase a Bible. I read about the life of Jesus and how he loved all people. What he did for me - and countless others like me - he also did for people in Palestine two thousand years ago. Jesus walked throughout the land proclaiming the Good News. This good news is the fact that we are all part of God’s creation and that there is a purpose to our lives. God loves us all and sent his son to show us the way to heaven. Like God himself, heaven is a holy place. Those who turn from sin and accept Jesus will receive eternal life. Those who stubbornly choose their own selfish, self centered life style will never know the wonderful things God has prepared for them.
